Tired

Am I missing the spark?

I feel i'm trying to fit into the world, to adopt to the situations while in it i'm losing myself. 

Because, you cannot be happy, if you are not 100 percent, if i cannot imbibe circumstances into me i cannot be 100 percent.

If i'm imbibing situations, I'm losing my identity. 

May be here i'm having stereotype that i should act what i'm every where, but that's not needed, you don't need to prove yourself everywhere. 

No you don't loose your identity, if you act accordingly. 

There is a fine line between acting accordingly and adjusting to situations. Where former happens with full conscious and knowledge where as later happens with dilemma and weekness.

Always try to do things that sparks light in you even every one is against you. 

10 days

IPC 2017(Nov 22 to Dec 2)

The days that introduced me to happiness, that gave sense of belonging, where i felt home, people of pure souls, i lived more close to myself than i ever lived, i laughed more heart-fully than i ever did, so close to the nature, so close to the heart, so close to the beautiful souls. It was all new to me, i was embarrassed first, i don't know how to be myself before, i introduced myself to me there, i don't know what was i doing when i was there, experienced every kind of emotion and feeling, it broke all my stereotypes. I felt a stranger after coming back, it felt like a new world I'm living in. It took me time to adjust to the people and situations. Visited aranya once again in that trans. After that slowly the situations, people, materialist things and people made me mechanical again. 

But that feeling still lasts in me the feeling of togetherness, freedom, belonging. The days I always look back at when I get mad about the world, that gives me hope, that gives me strength, 

It's the time

The joy and laughter

The happy, optimistic end to IPC

Where am I?

Acknowledging the current scenarios

Oh is it how it happens?

I stand with you 

Miss take

The learning process,

Not every one is similar,
you learn from your experiences
the love you experience, the people you meet, the bonds you develop, the way society takes you , everything is different in everyone's life,
People try to control you for the society, for the fame, for the name, for their sake.
Nobody ever own anyone's life or destiny,
Never get away by people's words or deeds, stand up for your principles.

I did not make mistakes, I experimented things that might work to get out of my frustration, to get out of my fear, from pressure , from stereotypes, to know about things, about people.

I wish the souls that i get connected, to be in my life always.

#Metoo

Consent is not static, it should be continuous and incremental.
A women won't accuse someone so that she can get some fame.
the old boys’ network always comes together to shut you out. They make you feel that there’s something wrong with you for blowing up a “trivial” incident out of proportion, this is why it's so hard to fight sexual abuse.
When she says listen, keeping your judgmental brains aside and listen to what she has to say, let her voice be heard whether it's your sister, daughter, wife or a friend whoever.

Every girl has experienced a worst night mare in her life at least once,

I had, too:

For the person I'm, for environment i grew up, for the dreams i have, for the beliefs i have, for the risks i take, It never was easy to live the way you wanted to. 

The vulnerability, the uniqueness, the fear, the judgments you get, the barks you hear, for the criticisms you face it was more than just being normal.

Being struck b/w acting to be normal which i do not know, trying to fight for the way i want to be, 

I never thought something was wrong or right, sometimes even i thought it was wrong , it was needed for the moment, its the way out at the moment. 

I was raised with an opinion that i should not raise my voice because society points at you if you raise, you should be perfect in front of society, if you face problems that is your problem not anyone's. you must correct yourself. You are wrong always.

Trust me you are not wrong most of the times, shout out when you need to. 

stand up yourself.

Learning Unlearning

Unlearning is as much as learning,
What has been taught to you all the while, all the shitty things, bundle of limitations, restrictions, assumptions, stereotypes etc everything you must unlearn all and learn to see life as it is, as the way it is not judging, not assuming, not presuming.

Experiences may teach you about people and things, let it be an experience, so you get the knowledge of that and now you know that there is possibility of that as well but let it not limit your possibilities.

And past is past, no matter how bad or good experiences you might have had. So be it there, never dwell into, you become more aware of the world now, be grateful and live the life now, never your emotional, psychological decisions be based on your past. Left it there, you don't need sympathy from people for the bad things happened in your life in the past or you don't need appreciations for the good things happened in the past. That is just PAST, KEEP IT THERE. 

You have more life present in the given moment, live it well.

True knowledge lies in seeing the things as what they are, seeing the world as it is, never assuming them to be right or wrong or this or that, you must be able to see them as they are.

Fear

That which can change the course of life,
Which is stopping you from following your heart,
You want to hear the things which pleases your heart and makes you happy. you are afraid of rejection and ignorance

You should be doing that.

Never let your stereotypes miss the magic of life

Misfit!

Marriage is a need
Love is an Illusion
Relationship is an art of selfishness

I'm happy being single in this society, where values are to keep people socially binded, where morals are to earn respect and ethics are to give you food.
where humanity has lost its meaning, love became a fad, where materialism and capitalism prevailing over everything else.

A soul with humanity, love for the people, has values which respect people , has morals for the conduct of life and ethics to bring in, never really cope up with this.

A Misfit!