After days have been passed,
May be after a long time,
Things have changed,
Many things are realized,
gone through different experiences,
hitting directly my heart, no excuses,
enough of concerning about outside things and made a choice to look deep into the heart.
Spent time with annaya, roamed with him, met ppl of family, enjoyed the time without any second thought.
Spent time with nanna n got to know about the situations at home.
joined pol science optional classes moved out of rajini akka house.
joined in hostel, spent time alone. Faced confusion of what n what not about life.
Tried overcoming insecurities about how am i n how i look, talked with different ppl online, on dating sites ,chatting sites etc..
Felt good about myself, started loving myself.
TISS exam, when i write the written test i didn't expect to clear it but when i cleared i thought of giving a try for interview but when i came out of interview i built hopes n started thinking about getting into it.
Result disappointed me, i didn't get selected. Realized that i didn't prepare well for written test(it carries 40% of total score), then also realized that i know the concepts but im not good at putting it in words(Pre-interview test essays), i should be more careful in answering(was nervous n anxious while answering interview). A good learning experience.
when i was feeling low about myself i felt that i need somebody to cry on, couldn't sleep that night, couldn't help myself but to cry. I was feeling alone, wanted to be around ppl who care for me at least. Left to home.
With mom n dad it felt good. Dad was talking about my marriage behind my back that made me angry though i didn't showed it.
before i used to shout when he take the topic of marriage but this time i couldn't may be coz even i felt the need of someone to talk freely but also at the same time is afraid of person who get into my life. Though do not want to marry this early, need a friend to talk to freely about everything.
All this while, learned that i shouldn't feel about ppls problems unless there is desperate need, do your work, do what your heart tells is right.
Work hard, do not give place to procrastination.
As i always think Civil services is not the aim of my life, its a means to get in touch with society, im not in hurry to get into it.
like to join in University. Applied for MA pol sci HCU.
May be this is what we call as Living,
Started living and learning is under progress.
May be after a long time,
Things have changed,
Many things are realized,
gone through different experiences,
hitting directly my heart, no excuses,
enough of concerning about outside things and made a choice to look deep into the heart.
Spent time with annaya, roamed with him, met ppl of family, enjoyed the time without any second thought.
Spent time with nanna n got to know about the situations at home.
joined pol science optional classes moved out of rajini akka house.
joined in hostel, spent time alone. Faced confusion of what n what not about life.
Tried overcoming insecurities about how am i n how i look, talked with different ppl online, on dating sites ,chatting sites etc..
Felt good about myself, started loving myself.
TISS exam, when i write the written test i didn't expect to clear it but when i cleared i thought of giving a try for interview but when i came out of interview i built hopes n started thinking about getting into it.
Result disappointed me, i didn't get selected. Realized that i didn't prepare well for written test(it carries 40% of total score), then also realized that i know the concepts but im not good at putting it in words(Pre-interview test essays), i should be more careful in answering(was nervous n anxious while answering interview). A good learning experience.
when i was feeling low about myself i felt that i need somebody to cry on, couldn't sleep that night, couldn't help myself but to cry. I was feeling alone, wanted to be around ppl who care for me at least. Left to home.
With mom n dad it felt good. Dad was talking about my marriage behind my back that made me angry though i didn't showed it.
before i used to shout when he take the topic of marriage but this time i couldn't may be coz even i felt the need of someone to talk freely but also at the same time is afraid of person who get into my life. Though do not want to marry this early, need a friend to talk to freely about everything.
All this while, learned that i shouldn't feel about ppls problems unless there is desperate need, do your work, do what your heart tells is right.
Work hard, do not give place to procrastination.
As i always think Civil services is not the aim of my life, its a means to get in touch with society, im not in hurry to get into it.
like to join in University. Applied for MA pol sci HCU.
May be this is what we call as Living,
Started living and learning is under progress.
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